Letter to Landon

Landon son I just wanna tell ya that daddy's sorry for not always being there for ya and I love ya and I know we done been through so much these past few years I can only imagine how you're feeling I know I ain't ALWAYS been in your life because daddy's made some bad decisions but I did what I had to do to provide a life for ya and I know that ain't no excuse because In the end it only hurt ya because of all tha years I wasted in prison could've been spent with you but I didn't want you or your lil sister to grow up and have to struggle like your daddy did so I did the only thing I knew how to do and I'm sorry for that because it only took years away from you and son I promise you and give you my every word that ima change tha lifestyle I been living so I can be a father to ya and one day PROVIDE A BETTER LIFE FOR YA AND WE CAN BE A FAMILY AGAIN AND I CAN ACTUALLY BE A ROLE MODEL TO YA AND IMA FOREVER BE HERE FOR YA BECAUSE LANDON DADDY LOVES YA. because son I promise you I know what it's like to grow up without a father and I don't want you to have to grow up without your father because I know deep down inside it just does something to ya God put me here to be your GUIDANCE and protector and only God knows I don't want tha streets to raise ya and when I look at you son I can see images of me in ya and tha thought of that scares me because i only want tha best life for ya and to grow up and be a inspiration and shining light to others and son I promise ya that tha only outcome of being in tha streets and trying to get that fast money is death or prison and daddy's done faced em both and I promise that ain't tha life you want and just cuz I ain't ALWAYS been their doesn't mean I didn't love ya because son I promise ya daddy would sacrafice his own life for ya 1DAY I PROMISE YOU DADDY WILL PROVIDE AWAY FOR YA AND WE CAN BE A FAMILY AGAIN and SON you know I would do anything for ya and I know things may be a little hard right now but daddy promises that is only temporary and I promise ya 1 day things will be so much better because as long as I'm still breathing Ima do everything that I can tha right way to 1 day provide a better life for ya and I promise you that I would never turn my back on ya SON you have ALWAYS been my little soldier since tha day you was first born and tha very first time i held ya and tha moment I laid eyes on ya I felt something start to grow inside me and for tha 1st time in my life I actually felt like I had a purpose and a reason to keep breathing because I don't want you to grow up in this crazy and evil world without your father and lil man no matter what ever happens just ALWAYS know that daddy will FOREVER love you.....