Been Thinking ft. Nap

Chorus I should be dead I'm not dead im in this bitch They hit my line askin if I feel blessed I tell em yes I tell em yes I'm blessed I used to feel bertrayed , left alone Somewhere a long the way I realized I was a king without a throne I was alone cause I wanted to be When alone I am at peace It's like they've all been bothering me Now im in the streets This time i choose to be I was not ok but now i am you see Just needed to be Alone with me I found what they call chi I'm quite now I write alot now Seems like 1 out of 5 songs A good one come out Most of em about my life Theyve been sad without a doubt But something good came from the hood Good came from the fight I seem to have found my crown How Does it make me feel better about my life right now Just cause I can write some words and opened my mouth let it all come out Funny it's been What they been talking about I feel like a clown for only now Learning what mama been servin What was I too proud, too humble Na I was a boy wow Stung by a bee ow Ey mom I have imagined gold metal on my head now I can show my teeth wow! Nowadays my anxiety controls me now So bad I can't go in moms house Most the time I'm nervous infront of a crowd Shit not now I look them demon'ss in the eye Pow Who fell to the ground Not me somehow This time mom and from now on yall I ain't gonna take the fall I've seen the bottom That Belly and all Let's get to the top Use em like a step Or do a bunny hop We're right there come on climb up Rise up , Believing in it and don't stop knowin in it to be and I'm living proof yea you knowin manifest it just know it IM UP and this time ill show it [ ] Remember that song I made before i went away to another state rappn about goin to another state and not coming back until I was straight, that song was great. [ ] I SAID ITS TIME TO provoke the winds [ ] Time to be a boss with real dividends [ ] And fuck friends, yea no friends [ ] Oh guess where Tommy is headed [ ] If not there already, they're on his head like confetti [ ] fuck friends yall stay in the pen while im countin my Benjamin's [ ] it fuckn never ends [ ] I know my lifestyle got em all worryin [ ] I know if I tell im ok I would be lyin [ ] And if I was would they believe me [ ] No way man [ ] So i stay on my own [ ] I stay in my zone [ ] That way stress or no [ ] I dont bring it to there home [ ] Everyone got they're own shit going on [ ] We're all goin We're all grown and still growin [ ] Ey i dont have much but I have my own and [ ] Everyone known where I be goin [ ] When I decide to stop blowing [ ] i be money throwing [ ] Katherine too, we see eye to eye, her and I and really understand the importance of being lazy when we want to and mamma ooooo [ ] Millions i tell you [ ] give a few years Im gonna give it 2 oh n mama I meant to tell you I remember you saying doors slammin left and right being whores swinging in the night puttn you in a freight you feel like this is your last fight this is only training camp for the real flight so you know what you do when this dead wood closes the hole in front of you its all good open that bitch back up forgot thats what it's suppose to do. [ ] Shit Andrea hasn't figured out that she got that clout and to utilize her skills somehow [ ] Lil jojo too [ ] Sleepin giants, what they gone do [ ] They'll have they're own [ ] Prolly own ours too [ ] 5 angles [ ] we blowin loud [ ] Flyin around we up [ ] got eachother now what's up [ ] Skies the limit let's go up na what the fuck who ever wrote that shit is a stupid fuck sittin with the ducks and you know he stuck first , how do you determine where the sky begins don't you have to know that to even say it has has end the word was limit whats the definition well its confined to or to keep within enclosed inside the premises or the region means it has an end well fuck that we flying around can't find windex or the cleaner now they disappeared somehow when all them owls got here spitn fire maybe thats why they can't hear we looking for peace in the end now even family turns out to be the enemy somehow that's why I stick to myself I can't afford to loose anymore fuckkn with my health yea I got the belt only time you see me on the ground is when I knelt i begged and asked him for helpsex i asked him for an end and he sent me a friend that's a story for another time dont know where to begin so much to tell you I think I'll start coming around again as long as you don't look at me no diffent cause I'm a bit skinnier than I was from then let me tell you I've never been in a darker place than then so if that's how yall want my physical self yall can have the belt can't make me go back to that so called sober self death and blood thats how I felt meth and drank kept me alive when I fell its how you handle yourself everyone has vices my is just misunderstood and not affiliated with wealth Wells that them and this is me im not justified to gettn high but please before you judge me be where I am Be where I've been and be where I was sober then we'll see happy mothers day mama I hope I fill you full of glee I'm sorry im not the old me he left when I was fucked my own family sending lies home to my mom puttin stress on my g no body would believe me if it wasn't for misty as I think about it more lately they simple minded 3rd grade motherfuckers I was blinded to busy scraping change lookin under rocks for a dime and I've never been so hungry In my life then then I know now y he simply was intimidated he simply was afraid I'd make it he was afraid he'd be in my shadow cuase what if it was his son yea we know Johnny's a soft bitch and so is Massimo you was afraid you'd be 2nd to king tho well you should killed me though now you got your spot get that money for my mom or im gonna kill you Hoe thats all she wrote. weak bitchs sink boats your the skum on the bottom if the boat Used to be my idle but now I see you for what you is And yous a scum ass bitch Choosing what over your nephew Oh the spot light with the money You can get screwed Choke on one too Beat you with a bat You ain't nothing but a rat check your vitals foo Wouldn't piss on you if you was on fire Only pour gas on your bitchass to make the flames go higher You lied and you had to be a sneaky Rat faggot just to get hired You have no respect for yourself and its gonna come back and bite you Your so beneath me I wouldn't even fight you Ill just let this bullet bite chu Id set you up so you'll go to that prison block and get fucked in your butt Be a prison slut Johnny you can get fucked Tie you down Break all your bones with a hockey puck Let's you die slow see I can be evil too In a way that's how you did me so thats imma do you They say let go and forgive and be peaceful Na fuck that and fuck you too You and everyone down there choke on a black dick till your blue Then I'll chop you up and make you dog food Then when imma kill the dog Cause shittn you out is way more than you deserve dude. 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