Beauty was mine

Oh it’s been a while since I’ve seen your face I don’t go any days thinking of not drinking until sinking from thinking of what you my look like today I remember when the beauty was my beauty was mine I remember when the beauty beauty was mine I remember when you refused to leave my side because you was mine I don’t know where we took the wrong road snow you win left I went right and we came towed to know you live higher than me you know that you’re highly educated and I just have worked my life away mindlessly thinking this is the righteous way but little did I know you’re showing me now I don’t know I shouldn’t of clown that should’ve been serious because as you were excelling I was falling behind the shit in the back of your Mac truck and you reselling like a Mack truck with a display the flies on the windshield if they get in your Tell me what it’s going to be Tell me if you’re really gonna leave I just need to know now it’s been a while since you’ve looked at me like you used to I know now that you’ve been on the prowl looking for new dudes I just must take myself and go because you don’t want me no you don’t want me no more I asked myself why I’m the one that always gets shit on why do I get the short end of the stick I don’t understand why my life has to be so hard it’s like it’s right out of a movie flick with no budget I found a reason when I was younger and I thought that was you you still are in my heart and I can’t shut you off like a light switch so you remember even when you’re in your darkest hour I’ll be there thinking of you this is my darkest day this will be the darkest time now I’m heading up the dark tower there’s so many stairs to reach the goals it’s a wonder why we don’t tumble or jump to the floor I’ve never felt anybody else is love and I don’t really want to experience it but you’re forcing me out of your life and you don’t want me to be a part of you no more you never let me in you never open doors you didn’t show me what you really really adored I’ve never been h