Conro_verse (official) - on my own #real #pain #ukrap sometimes sometimes i domt what to know to say/ sometimes i cry alone its hard to e hold in the pain/ sometimes i felt my life was just hopeless mistake/ and sometimes i feel left out on my own in the rain/ (hook) let mw tell boit this real pain, ever see your mummy tryna kill herself woth pills/ trying shuv em down her throat couldnt swallow but it killed jake/ deep down inside this boy knew mummy didnt feel great/ couldn't heal the pain didnt feel the same/ shouldn't feel the blame evrwyhere i went yeah this donny had to feel shame/ i was scared i coukdnt open up and now i speak about it/ my lifes now like open cut but im not bleeding out it/ ive seen things you will never see or even dream about it/ note pads in my pocket or my phone i just dont leave without it/ writing bars to musics my escape or im a fiemd without it/ cocaine was wife and now its nice cus im clean without it/ yeah it's fact i was like cat scratching for scratch/ ringing every number in my phone trying to get a bag/ life was mad everything moves fast now im feeling sad/ x2 (hook) now im coming with these writtens that will make you think/ now im having vision of little kid in blue or pink/ didn't know redemption was possible til i made it so/ paying therapists to listen my shit just saved me though/ it saved me bro you should probably try it man it gave me hope/ everything i went through man its dark and irs no crazy joke / choking on the fumes from the exhaust in haze and smoke/ 5 yesrs old pit the hose inside the car but thats dad came home/ (beat quiet then scene of dad driving home to find my mum in car crying trying to gas us all etc for 8 bars then hook again ) its amazing how ive eneded u the way i have/ could of eneded of murderer now im making plans/ talking bout a family for me and a girl in hand/ chasing a career for better things in life which make glad/ i dont need to materialistic objects yeah ive been steroid user yeah ive been and got sex/ been a fuck dealer been an addict man but what's next/ buzzing bout my life in future just like a wasps next/the complex that i couldnt be hapo is now a prospect/ its becoming the truth its becoming reality/ now i harness the fruits and im in charge of this sanity/ will embark on this route til i have lost qll this sanity/ i aint sparking a zoot cus that just fuck with my clarity/ y/ and now my heart's in the booth n i dont care about vanity/yeah i lifted from shops had hand me downs from charity / a little hood rat the charity case/ i used pray ask god if i could hace family saved/ but noone ever answerwd so i had to be brave/ i lost all my hope on i faith so i stared god in the face/ i told him he go and fuck off til i rot in a grave/ i swear i went from nursery to straight shotting the grade/ 10 years old running one stop so the boss coukd get paid/ 10 years old running one stop i got lost on my way/ yeah i gotta little suttin got a little Suttin bunning/ but this littke kid was bunnin when he wished t his mum just loved him/ now hes older and he sees that they were dumb things/ feels the pain and then juat numbs it with a drink another substance/ it seems a never ending cylclr in abundance/ man these demon cannot beat me im acustom to a dungeon/ and if the devil wants to dance again ill tell him can answer them/ while i try and solve all lifes conundrums