PURPOSE

another warrant man really blowing it man oh man all of this so insane all messed up man I need onto another program all of these pressures reprecutions from when I dumped it up yessir paper on the dressor. On the bed edge cloud over my head bad weather close my eyes frustration what my head does so sick of this depression cuz tired of catching Ls feeling like failure a snail with a little slimy trail behind me feeling blind wheres braille my earth journey feeling like my personal hell is it demon am I under spell virus like my dell? I'm reaching out like fingers under my nails cause of it worth to keep going or to just grab whiskey and this bottle of pills cant I cant tell yes it's worth it. future you got for certain even tho the rd been so jerky and the pain be deep hurting and shadows and bad thoughts keep lurking you have a meaning yea you have a purpose and we need you with us crisis after crisis what in the hell man I'm getting devil spread like heilman new stupid showing up daily everyday a new s.o.s a new mayday and payday way away them people tryna take my whip today another trippy day feel like on a glitchy way Aisha I could trade it cause even knowing momma told me there would be days like this my whole thang feel like bout to cave in and it's raining lions and wolves everythang taking it toll banging at my head like a pole world feeling all clammy cold on my soul I'm not even knowing if it's worth in to keep going could go get the 4 4 wouldnt even see the morning no. dont do it no man keep holding on man your chosen man and you have a purpose even when you feel like a monkey middle of the circus everything working your nerves we need you with us so take this curve another dope pack. man. told myself I would never go back got two rug rats this ain't no way to act why am such a week man why cant get it together life like a vaccum a vamp dipping low again I'm on the floor like an ant cant stand it. damb it why cant it all be differently high off H ain't what it's meant to be and that high hitting me. cant even let my wifey distinguish me she might bag up the children dip on me been getting high off that black pearl it seem for my whole world. feel like I'm getting hurled is it even worth it to keep going I could hurl maybe I can make my exit call it wrapp everyone would be better off after that obviously cant hack it always off track I could just do something to make me never be back no. dont do that. I know where your at. I know you messed up again but you can get off of your back and back on track your family needs you even tho you dont feel like that you have purpose even tho you keep repeating these same courses so dont listen to those voices dont let them effect your choices...