i gotta go so for now this is Farewell going in circles like I'm on a carousel go through ups & downs ferris wheel i gotta go so for now this is Farewell farewell I just go in a circle like carousel ride lifes ups & downs like a ferris wheel or roller coaster older I grow I only grow colder I feel like a clown where a circus at i walk on a tightrope like a circus act I might go psycho without two percocet cause I am in pain maybe I'm not really crazy but I'm insane & I can't be tamed without three oxycontin we are not the same I am a genius you're more like a oxymoron me & you in the same room is an contradiction wasting my oxygen exercise with demons in a boxing gym my mind's a cage that I'm locked up in with them need a exorcist to get rid of em but we been together since I was a kid sometimes it's hard to say goodbye have a good time gettin' high by myself just me & a bad guy that's my alter ego we go perfect with each other & I know when I go I am going straight to hell so thats why I'm still afraid to say Farewell i gotta go so for now this is Farewell going in circles like I'm on a carousel go through ups & downs ferris wheel i gotta go so for now this is Farewell farewell to a girl who never cared how i feel or a cold world full of snow & no snow plows he walked uphill both ways wishing I could go back to the old days & listened to my grandpa as he told me that story but can't he has passed away & I never had the chance to say farewell tell him how much I appreciate the love he gave he raised me more then my dad did now I feel bad I never visited enough always had stuff to do to busy to pick up a phone another lie I use to tell try to sell & you never bought it after all you taught me how to play poker so ya knew all my tells everytime I lied you called my bluff now I would go all in if I could call again trying to make him proud stand up like a man but keep fallin' like satin as a angel & he use to say only Jesus can save me but I only hope he didn't save me a place in heaven cause if he did he is gonna be waiting for me awhile cause I am still in denile that God exist no I'm not a atheist I'm a alien i been searchin' this earth for my spaceship so I can leave this planet and finally get a chance to say farewell adios I gotta go now hope you enjoyed the show come back the next time I'm your home town It feels like I sold out but I never sell tickets that's why I live in an old house I write lyrics & when I spit it all I hear is crickets in over my head & holdin' my breath under water trying to drown out the voices harder I try louder they get I got this disorder & its torturous so I get on a beat start to record it put my heart in it poured it out paint my pain like a tortured artist already told ya we ain't the same wait isn't it aren't the same potato potatoe thought I told you I gotta go now why won't this beat stop like its my list of problems don't mean to keep bringin' them up realize that we all got them but I'm just spitting what I've written giving my vision from my prison cell & thanks for visiting like a visitation when living in hell everyday is like a celebration so live it up don't give a fuck stuck in a matrix a simulation with rapest & racist I hate it & can't escape it so I wait for the day I get out of the cage I'm caged in break these chains that enslave me say farewell to all my friends & family