losing my logic

@endofdays #slashinc #breakthistigma mental health weighs heavy on my mind,hard as I try I just cant seem to unwind,this bpd got me metaphorically blind,raw emotions running wild inside this Ill mind of mine.i pace back and forth,i pace forth and back"im sorry i didnt mean to burn a hole in your floor like that" every single day is a struggle,some days I curse those motherfucking "muggles". a mess emotionally and my world,its caving in you see.. I didnt ask for this life,always in strife,intrusive thoughts carve into my brain like a knive to the frontal lobe til my brain explodes,damn I'm sick of these borderline episodes. overmedicated cause these doctors arent dedicated enough,they dont wanna help cause I can get a lil rough,understand that this is real stuff,i wear my heart on my sleeve,right hand up..no bluff. so that's my mental health story,I left out a lot,its simply too gory and not enough glory involved with a lot of shit left unsolved..that was the old me but now I'm evolved.i used to just grab that sword with contempt for any coward who would try to step to me,"I'd carve him up real nice",like a hungry tony Montana,I just want my slice."fuck gaspar Gomez and the fucking Diaz brothers,those motherless fucks just killed Tony's mother and yes I'm rapping about a video game,running round miami insane in the brain,slangin cocaine was the aim of that game..oh fuck now iv went off topic ,oh yeah mental health has me losing my logic.