Pain

something don't appear to be real I struggle every. single night so I can eat .stone cold heart i can't even feel. why kim .why me .yeah why me every night you always on my dream .. like the river am willing to. follow you down stream ..in my dark hours staring at the mirrow watch me scream ..am dangerous and am savage ..am sorry keep your advices .i don't want questions I want answers ..have had enough time to shut down.. new heart new program new command...little twist of hand .. nothing wrong with being bad. .on this path alone and I don't like it . I walk with my instinct .demons on my I can't fight it . but anyway am glad you happy . wish that the case ..but why I feel like fighting punch that guy on the face ..staring at me ..am ever angry always tryna impress. dumb .never check my expense my thoughts racing would I ever hold your hands. this feeling is strange ..you ain't fair . you are the one to blame ..you made me love you too much .now am left wtih a hole and all the pain. I knew this would happen .but the impact was worse than train or some Japanese blade.. cutting through my flesh.... daggers through my heart wounds still fresh. when all hope is lost where do you turn too if not faith... or when you a mouse and your all trap cause you took the bait. this is some next level shit .. drown beneath in an. endless pit . or some tiny box that you can't fit can't breathe ..just me ...