I'm not me anymore (remastered)

I'm not me anymore, I feel I've been invaded. I'm not me anymore, all my goodness went and faded. I'm not me anymore. im tired of my heart being vacant. I'm not me anymore, these words Im sending up are sacred. I'm not me anymore My heart sits in my hand, under grip lock security. Shielding it's love from unwanted surgery. Afraid of the surgical purjury from the unlicenced nursery. Practicing fervently now I'm full of uncertainty. My heart's in my hand to get proper nurturing. Saftey in a touch that's duing more than just poisoning. My God is my rock if the demons start torturing. I'm not me anymore, I feel I've been invaded. I'm not me anymore, all my goodness went and faded. I'm not me anymore. im tired of my heart being vacant. I'm not me anymore, these words Im sending up are sacred. I'm not me anymore I'm running this race like my feet are aflame. Can't handel the shame or the pain so God bring the rain. I'm done placing blame wipe the stain from my name watch my mouth, don't take the Father's name in vain. I don't wanna be my Father's shame. I wanna let go of things, yea I wanna let go of things. This is just growing pains yea its just growing pains. It feels like hurt but they feel the same yea they feels the same. I'm not me anymore, I feel I've been invaded. I'm not me anymore, all my goodness went and faded. I'm not me anymore. im tired of my heart being vacant. I'm not me anymore, these words Im sending up are sacred. I'm not me anymore Love lost, but no love lost, just feeling love locked and clock tossed. Always watching the time, I see how that clock does. Taking no breaks I break for the work place. Never running late so I can double my work rate. Working double time for my sliver of living space. Open the can and put it on my dinner plate to poor to eat the prime rib or shrimp with 12 oz steak. Got a small circle cause I don't like to deal with fake. Latley not feeling great the world is in a scary state. The world is a scary place, I really don't feel the same I'm not me anymore, I feel I've been invaded. I'm not me anymore, all my goodness went and faded. I'm not me anymore. im tired of my heart being vacant. I'm not me anymore, these words Im sending up are sacred. I'm not me anymore