life for me

there's been some dark days and dark times and dark ways it's like I live in a mother fuckin maze someone plays with the time the seconds the min the hrs the days the months the yrs so much wasted times on wasted things it like that's what wasted brings we all live in a dream a good dream or bad dream somehow life is never how we make it seem it's never how we want it to be it's never what we wanted see I wish I knew what was destined for me what will life bring what will I do what kind of life in the future will I pursue because this life for me this life I live it just won't do I mean I've created so much dissaray a distant Ray a Ray that can't possibly take much more a Ray that can't stay a Ray that's got to go a Ray that needs to know all the better aspects of a life of a life of a life a Ray that has a wife and his kids and his family does all the things in life that families do sometimes I sit and think about