Dead Or Alive

It's hard to choose between life and death not alright, scared of my past feeling emotionless, not wishing a faith don't wanna live old, pain made me so cold up in the sky i saw the lord, since im depressed im alone i became the one they were afraid of im so paranoid still don't know why did i take LSD, it hurts my brain, i got PTSD they calling me crazy, ain't my fault if im paranoid many will come, many will go ima stay forever, ima give you hope many will fall, many will rise dead or alive, please survive this world is too messed up, that's right its too fucked up feeling like we stuck in it, no way out we're locked in you don't know how much i suffered, trying my best to be a great person people thinking im gorgerous who the fuck are you to judge codeine to fixing up this curse my anxiety, the size of the universe prescriptions to take the pain away they hurts my brain but im still loving it can't you see, in front of y'all im dying who the fuck noticed they will love me when i'll take the last pill all legends fall in the making, you know it im not complaining of myself, not my fault they calling me insane i admit im not doing well yeah i dwell in hell life or death choose one of these dead or alive it's your destiny