💎Survival💎

honestly I'm think of all time we spent sinking into every possible position you could dream of opposition that could cross the line on top of all I'm missing falling over my thought we had a calling, this is what we been waiting for to long I been impatient I'm debating walking while I'm racing the devil continues to control my every thought, I was getting jealous till I brought up what compels us inside we all animals impress me by other means then just complain about what each other needs it all the same you could stay! you could even leave! Already I've accepted the full extent of my depression, the doctor told me the shit is never ending! so buckle up I'm offending everyone I ever pretended to understand I estimate no matter how many times I never listened or learn my lessons of course in these efforts put forth to observe, from a different a prespectives, I'm diverse! I question all life and look at only what might cause me to take a turn for the worst! I step back to current affairs! i'm beginning to work but I'm unprepared But since birth I been abused! My father said I deserve whatever I got coming through! I swear he only messaged my success, by asking only if the drugs were enough and how Do you take and imitate! the behavior all the same! The bar always set well above! Even his own fucking head! It's never enough! Still I never give up! Sip dripping acid still running to pass em! I overcome being doubted! But what's said is done! Before I was grounded! I was the loudest! Never over concerned! Who gives a fuck who makes you the proudest! When all my life disappointment was all I was surrounded by! I have to keep this aggravation all inside! Till one day I found, I no longer have the patients! You slipped and fell straight down into the basement! I couldnt contain my resentment in that moment! I could picked up the phone! But instead I was happy to watch you drop! It isnt that I knew exactly what I done! Only after you started turning blue! Did I realize the potential, I couldnt of wished for a better outcome! I guess is just coincidence it was I found em! I was blessed with karma by side! The way I see it, It was survival! Better him then I