prepping..

I got  scars to prove my hearts wounded.. am weak. why does my future look bleak hurt by  folks I loved the most these days fams  dirge your ghost more like they loved your soul. acting like they know you so!! same folks made you roast. Adieu and Rips of the coast yet when you toast they say you had big dreams bout to blow. you was the light  and you had the glow just so you know the Good die younger not everyone reaps what they sow. my love is magical my life is tragical you happy now?? i say miss me how you miss me my heart stone freezed like Antartica. i'm gypsy living in this deep see a myth a mystery still the Tea in the lipton psycho old and i'm fifty, lift me trust me believe me i am the prettiest flower, pretty like lily, but like a rose I am dorned with these beautiful thorns. you say am the ugly one I am my mums beautiful son mistakes make me feel li am in a mess always Paranoid, fucking depressed sleep feels like heaven When I wake yearn for death. shits feel like I'm hexed!! this drugs killing me best. why does one find peace only when they REST OR DEAD.