bang bang bang!

everyday i look out my window its a warzone *bang bang bang* living everyday like a struggle *bang bang bang* all my life ive been running i dont know why im running for nothing cuz the drugs got me living with a funky vision trynna see through life all the collisions cuz all i hear is *bang bang bang* *dang dang dang* where the fuck im i at? *at* im in a dark room with no light to define theres a hole but its not refined i can't get outta this situation everytime i try to escape i run into something and fallout *suicide leave my fucking head* *kill yourself* *your mother hates you* *your friends arent really your friends* *your gonna die alone* *die alone* *your gonna go to hell* them are the voices talking to me in my head once i leave the stead aint no going back to her you broke my heart now all i hear is *bang bang bang* *hey lets see how much you bleed* all my life ive been moved the wrong way and so i went right into my thoughts drowning in my fear *oh dear noone to save him oh no!* *get outta my head* *why did she do this to me* *you should take revenge kill her* like *bang bang bang* simple man crazy mind over sensitive body thoughts in my head scream myself to sleep and drink to my misery *drink some more* smoke some more* come on ill make all your problems go away* saw my brother murdered in front of me in 2012 he was stabbed now i have ptsd *ptsd* *depression* kill your fucking self* dont call me a dummy cuz i dont gotta alotta money. fine dont love me what is there for me to lose eh? dont worry im a okay just let me walk to crackhouse *crack house* *spit raps to make you feel better and cry Like a little bitch* *ya momma been snorting cocaine and drinking* *you'll grow up to be a nobody* everynight i hear gunshots ringing in my hear i hear it so much it sounds like there singing sweet joy sweet joy makes my heart ache alotta people ive known have died its like a oncoming thing i feel like death is calling my name cuz i all i hear is *bang bang bang* *damn damn damn* he killed himself he never how how many people loved him and cherish his lifestyle and his thoughts if you ever feeling suicidal or know somebody step up so we can end it peacefully no *blood blood blood*