heaven I can never find

locked up in the pen, an now I'm free, the fucking streets done changed cups, an my woman dosent want a makeup, fuck am I supposed to do, if I get hustling again, they gonna throw away the fucking key, an charge me with murder 1, for anyone who has ever 8d, blame all on me, for losing their daughter or son to drugs, cause I was moving keys, trying to live the life of the devil that I am, looking for love I can seem to find so I can hold her hand as we walk on beautiful island, an finally see my footsteps in the sand, an my footsteps have a matching pair, as i wipe the tears from her eyes, an look at way winds move her beautiful hair, so I can her beautiful of eyes a beautiful memory we just created forever, I was trying to find, so I can see her footsteps next to mine, her love is all I was ever trying to find, except we divided like grains of sand in a hour glass, all I know is this, if I can find her in this lifetime, jyst to tell I sorry I am before she left, then I'll find her when heaven lets back in, jyst to sing every song I wrote that I never wrote down, when all my wrongs had me looking so bad, an the ones that God said save them for him, so finally when I make that life changing move, I prove that even a devil like me can do something good, like falling in love an trying let my good out weigh my bad, so I ain't pushing what they waiting for, instead I got my trunk loaded with the weight I been looking for, so I can keep hustling. an give the life she always new, they hate for always choosing hell if I could hold her in heaven just like before, before heaven closed its doors,. not cause the devil was bad, only cause the love that he has for his gift that gave for him to forever have to hold , an kiss her tears away of being so sad, an they say all the devil will ever be is bad, except for when it comes to loving her, cause she the only one stuck up for me, cause all he does is good when hes loving me, when he knows I love him in return so he dosent ever feel alone again, walking thru the sands of time, only footsteps hes m7ssing his next to , an footsteps I wanna see in the stands is hers next to mines, an I'll always love stephanie forever in heaven an here on earth, cause hell is where I'm living an I'm still missing her footsteps right next to mine, so if ask my why I'm still in the kitchen, is cause I'm whipping a brand new batch I just picked up, from all the feelings of love, and I'm hustling these rhymes to take over the world, so I can my wife whatever she wants, just as long as she wants me, if not, then I guess it's back to blocc I go, hustling the dope ass tracks I just wrote catches her again so can say see how good the devil can be, essentially when all he needs is to know hes loving me even all the money in the world wouldn't change how feel about loving my stephanie all would do is buy her dreams come tru, an if she stop loving me, then the I would show in her video to every song I sang, by painting her every beautiful memory i remember of loving her, an show her good the devil can be so she can see, u told the devil does things especially when it comes to lovong me,. cause I want to hear her say is Jaim I'm so in love an I wanna you say you love me too, an promise no matter how bad they want you be, promise me you'll show them how could the devil can be, just so long as hes loving me, an together forever we will be, I love you FOREVERMORE thank you GOD for letting the devil fall so deeply into love an forever always loving me, I love you Jaim, love your stephanie