no god, no love

Lemme take it back for you When I was just a stupid kid in muh fuckin high school Coulda learn some things like how to tell the truth But admitting I was wrong is just one thing I don't do You'll never know what it's like Wakin up every single day Lookin in the mirror Seein someone else's face running from my demons Tellin me patients is the way I wanna be the man I am Try to tell em it ain't a phase screamin, Will someone to listen Messin myself up in this mission. I'm reachin for religion Like itll save me from my decision. when I'm saying fuck it Everyone else is just above it I'm learnin nothing from it But I got played just like a puppet And I know, that people won't understand How could a soul get lost, in this god forsaken land But I've been delt some shit, look at these cards that's in my hand If god truly does exist, he's a sick an twisted man Tell my mom, she made a mistake by wanting a kid I'm not her Babygirl, she prayed for, look what I did I took the wrong path, all I am is a disappointment reminiscing how, it was my fault For missed appointments Eatin food and watchin TV, every light on in the house, I would want for all this stuff, but I learned to shut my mouth. money added up, and that's always been the problem but keeping fuckin silent was just how I learned to solve em. Grammy use to tell me that I could be fixed Talk to all the Drs and just cash in all my scripts Tell me go to church, lack of religion did this I really don’t even care no more Just shut your fuckin lips Mis-gendered and disrespected pronouns Nobody really cares cause all they do is put me down Sayin I'm a girl as I walk across this town But I'm a fuckin dude and all you are is just profound I explain but they don’t hear a thing It's like letting someone fly then breaking both their wings Feeling like a king,being told you’re a queen I am who I am, just a puppet on a string I'm upset and you provoked it analyze it pick and poke it Beat me every way you canuntil I'm broken bitch i'm broken