past tense

I tried to sell my soul today But it didn't go my way But now I'm happy I'm alive Actually no I wanna die So much confusion Ever sence she left I'll never meet the next Cause I'm a huge screw up I remember back in the 8th grade When I was on top All the smack talk Just to get a reaction Now I don't even know the fraction Interested in a new girl She is too But it won't be long till She is throwing up in a shoe Cause I'm a terrible man Wish I could find a plan A plan to make me a man A good man A wise man Hope I grow to be nice If I live long enough to get there I lie in bed at night All I do is cry Cause I wanna die But I'm too Pussy to take my life She send me snap On the snapchat It was a good snap So I snapped back Said I love you Be she no love me too Maybe another day I can come around No ill never be enough for you darling She only wants the man she thinks I am darling I'll never be that man I'm sorry momma I let u down I couldn't even hear the sound of u crying out loud Never hurt a woman like my dad Raised me real bad credit to the mad I'm sad I would write u a line But I'm too busy smoking that pine I'll never be enough Not tough But rough I apologize I couldn't see the pain in your damn eyes Now u took your life cause of the knife It's all my fault Hope I die tonight