since I was a boy all I ever wanted to do was make my mom proud be a good man.. a good father a decent person.. a simple man try my very best . make the right decisions maybe even help someone else along the way but the days have grown grey and the storms have lasted so very long.. I've done some very wrong things so far .. I must balance the scales with kindness and compassion... honorable actions.... patience and wisdom.. humility and amends ..Lord forgive us thank you for your second chances.AMEN..thank you for what been through.. I try so hard to think before I just act on impulse.. I'm so blessed to still be alive ...I can sieze the day..the moment.. and tomorrow turn it all around or lose it all ..it's ok to fail.. it's ok to fall .. but we must get up and take control of our lives before we die.. nothing is guaranteed.. there is so much greed... so much wealth yet parents cannot even feed their children.. working two jobs .. single moms and dads doing the best they can yet it is still not enough.. expect rough seas and plenty of turbulence... don't be overwhelmed by the anxiety and depression..every mistake can be a lesson.. I know your stressed..hurt and sickned but please don't give up .. you can fix this ..I believe in you ..