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Dear Lord… Why life gotta be like this or like that? Why every road I take gotta come with a setback? I’m not here to disrespect You, I’m just standing in the rain like— “God, where You at?” I called You several times… No answer. But I’m still here. So maybe this ain’t defeat— Maybe You’re testing the fighter. VERSE 1 — RAP BATTLE ENERGY I been smiling for the people, while my heart been bleeding, Made sacrifices for the dream, now my scars got meaning. Gave away my happiness, still I kept believing, Looked into the mirror like, “Boy, what you becoming?” Late nights, wide awake, arguing with the ceiling, Asking God questions ’cause nobody knows the feeling. “Did I do something wrong? Why You watching while I’m bleeding?” People that I loved walked away when I needed them. Father in Heaven, Dad, I called You—no response, Left so many missed calls, still I’m standing on my own. I said, “Give me one sign, let me know that You’re active,” Silence hit my phone, but my faith stayed reactive. Mama said, “Be strong,” she don’t know the pressure, I told her I’m okay while I’m fighting my depression. I pray inside the darkness, “Lord, You hearing my message?” If You know my heart, then why You keep me guessing? PRE-CHORUS — BUILD Why You let me lose the things I prayed for? Why You make me fight these wars I never asked for? If this pain is part of something I can’t see, Then why does Your silence feel so loud to me? But I’m still breathing… Still believing… Still standing… CHORUS — BIG MELODIC Oh Lord, why my life gotta be like this or like that? Why every time I move forward, something pulls me back? I don’t wanna question You, but I need to understand, I’ve been carrying this weight so long— Lord, I need Your hand. Why so much pain in my heart, why this weight on my chest? Why I give my all and still don’t get my best? If this pain is a test, Lord, tell me how much can I take? You keep bending me with pressure— But I refuse to break. VERSE 2 — RAP BATTLE / CONFIDENCE I had dreams bigger than the fear living inside me, Now I count every sacrifice that nobody reminded me. Lost some people close, lost pieces of my soul, But pressure made me stronger—now I’m built for the road. They told me, “Be patient,” like they know what I paid, They never saw the nights when I was fighting in the rain. They see the man today, they never witnessed the cost, Never saw me fight myself when I thought I was lost. I asked You for blessings—You handed me lessons, Asked You for peace—got tested by depression. Asked You for answers—Your silence got louder, Now I’m standing in the storm screaming, “Where You at, Father?” But let me make this clear—I’m not begging for pity, I survived every round, now the pain can’t defeat me. If life wants a battle, tell it bring what it’s bringing, I walked through hell already—now watch how I’m winning. BRIDGE — MELODIC / EMOTIONAL Tell me why… Why I gotta hurt just to know I’m alive? Tell me why… Why I gotta lose just to open my eyes? If You’re beside me, Why this road feel lonely? I’m still calling Your name… So Lord, please don’t ignore me. FINAL CHORUS — POWERFUL Oh Lord, why my life gotta be like this or like that? Why You let me lose so much and still expect me to stand? I don’t understand Your plan, but I’m still holding on, Even when the night gets heavy, I know the sun gon’ come. I lost pieces of myself just to stay alive, But there’s still something burning deep inside my eyes. If this pain is a test, Lord, teach me how to survive, And if You’re writing my story— Don’t let this be the final line. OUTRO — QUIET, THEN CONFIDENT Dear Lord… I questioned You because I’m hurting, Not because I stopped believing. I lost so much. I sacrificed so much. But I’m still here. Maybe You never left me… Maybe I just couldn’t feel You. So if tomorrow brings another storm… I’ll still call Your name. Why, Lord? Maybe one day I’ll understand. But until then… I’m still standing. I’m still breathing. And I’m still fighting.