Brand New

Bittersweet to say I don’t like who Iam, now listen wait a minute let me explain. If only I could have better skills, faster thrills, better fears, so I don’t have to be scared of facing things myself everyday. I laugh it off, shrug it off telling myself that it will be ok, wishing I could believe my every word trying not to sound absurd. My life’s a joke and I wish I could take it like one all my friends got it going on and I’m still stuck on the road. Waiting on the green light. I feel stupid just writing this song but what I have just said is done. It is what is, what can I say. my grandma said that you’re born with what you have and you don’t get upset. Truly tho wish I could wake up as someone brand new. My tears don’t mean anything unless their mine, I can’t remember the last time I was mad, is at myself, is it at the world, is it at everybody else. It’s hard when nobody can see your pain and you’re using makeup to medicate. Put on a fake beautiful smile and go back home, try not to seem hostile, breathe girl a least you did it with some style. I’m gonna be honest I envy people who can open up easily without any trust. People say “it’s so easy “ and “I say oh yeah for you it must” (Sigh) What a time, where I wish I could wake up as someone brand new