this just don't go away , the amount of pain i carry has me like when is it gonna rain ,?

this just don't go away , the amount of pain i carry has me like when is it gonna rain ,? so i can attenpt to wash this pain away , ? but thats when i then realized that the pain that i carry unfortunately seems like its not gonna go away , . at times i dont wanna keep putting up with my addictive ways but then at times im like why change ? but my addiction is really gettin in my way , has me taking detours way way up out the way way up out the way , this type of shit just dont go away , just wont go away , i wonder off and get to thinking about how i can mark this one off ? i take alot of shit to the heart , ive. stored alot of shit in my heart , ive wanted more shit in my heart , ive tooken even more shit OUT OF MY HEART !! out of my heart , ! so please dont start dont start wit me no im not like them , infact im like me. no they dont like me infact i like me . no they ain behind me infact im infeont an behind me myself an i , i got me myself and i , and if ur rocking w me then we gonna rock this shit erynight. if ur riding w me then we gonna ride this shit off. my loyalty go way way to far my loyalty is royalty and i let it play its part. all this shit got me in my head wondering what to do , its like all i see is dead people im hearing real life voices screaming next its gonna be you ! i try to escape from the pain but its too real people tske my kindness for weakness because im to real ,