Spy on Me

#BrielleBlack #SpyOnMe Verse 1 I was running way too fast, couldn’t see the wall coming Then my whole world cracked and the room stopped humming Blood on the floor, lights white, voices low Doctors looking at me like, damn, she might not go home Pills on the nightstand, fear in my chest Smiling for people while I couldn’t even rest Months in my head with no door, no key Had to sit with the monster that sounded like me They tried to chain the storm, tried to label the fire Told me calm down, breathe, don’t reach any higher But I kept pushing that rock with my bones and my pride Every time it rolled back, another weak me died I’m not healed like a poster, I’m healed like a blade Still got cracks in the handle, still cuts when it’s raised I don’t flex for attention, I survived too loud Now the silence in me hits harder than a crowd Pre-Hook Move, even when your legs shake Move, even when your heart breaks Move, when the dark gets loud That’s the only way I made it out Hook Listen now I don’t run, I rise Listen now I lost fear in the fire Listen now Silence made me dangerous Listen now You can’t break what rebuilds itself Verse 2 Everybody chasing light like the dark ain’t home But I learned in the blackout who I was alone I hit the wall first, so I know what it means To wake up in pieces and still chase dreams I’m young in the mirror but old in the soul Had to lose my mind just to take control Not control of the world, not control of you Just control of the voice that was cutting me through I needed more than prayers, more than proof in a book Needed one honest breath when nobody looked Needed one quiet second where the noise stepped back And I heard my own pulse say, you’re still intact So I move with the pain, I don’t bury it clean I let it walk beside me like a shadow with teeth Grey out, black fit, calm face, deep wounds I don’t enter rooms, I shift the whole mood Bridge I don’t hate the ones who couldn’t understand You can’t hold a hurricane with soft little hands They taught me the rules, I broke them with grace Turned every locked door into part of my name Now they hear my voice and they feel something shake Not because I’m perfect, but because I didn’t fake I crawled through the night with my soul in my fist So when I say listen, I mean listen to this Final Hook Listen now I don’t run, I rise Listen now I lost fear in the fire Listen now Silence made me dangerous Listen now You can’t break what rebuilds itself Outro I was never the miracle they wanted to see I was the warning, the wound, and the remedy Listen now… I’m still moving.