blistered heart... White lightning.....

with the simplest of words. you could have made everything okay. made all the fears in our lives disappear.. but you chose to stay right there. and I chose to walk the other way. I'd say it's my fault for falling for. what I seem to see the woman of my dreams. cuz now it is so apparent. there was never a me to you. never an eye in anything you would do. but now I can see right through you. and the only thing I can do I did. I made my decision. and I stood up and walked quietly away forever and eternity. I know better than to look back to see. cuz years of friendship. and a heart blisterd in pain. I know you were never even there. like a ghost of misery. all the purposes I had. washed away in the rain. and I know my life will never be the same. hopes and dreams I'm chasing. but the truth is I'm running away. cuz it hurts so bad to see you let me walk away. but that's what you do when your heart tells you that true love exist. you just ain't found it yet. you may never. and I realize now. I'm a crippled clown. laying face down. with my back towards heaven. so I cannot see the Lord's blessing. I don't want to without you there. I look forward to despair. I'm a mad Hatter now beware. never good at rejection never accepted being lied to. I've got beware sign on my heart. it says please love me I'm afraid of the dark. I just want to love in my heart. but you must be aware of the pain.