People are around me,but still feel alone

People are around me,but still feel alone Like I gotta nobody im on my own I can't sleep im always on my phone all of this people always come and go all of my homies change like the weather wish someone told me nothing last forever my momma been doubting well im getting better to all the people thinking im gonna quit just know im never all I ever want was just real love cause there's so much pain i can't rise above People always pretend,nobody knows my life is haeI was alone nobody else could see I was talking to myself, nobody else could see Only G.O.D knows what I mean I always believed that I will but the thing is I was wack still Like I've even tried to take a pill Everyday I wish to be the rich so that people can see me, cause no one's seeing me But still have to move on and let the things be Sometimes I wish I was never born All this people hating while im here,but gonna love when gone Tears falling like rain, don't get me wrong sometimes I just feel like my momma is hating me cause everything i say,she just doubting meI'm going through a solo so much that they don't know I'm just tired with this boring soul why can't I be happy, homie im not like you you ain't alike, so don't you dare sometimes I just feel so scared have you ever been afraid to lose people,but no one's afraid of losing you homie this is not a joke, you don't know what I been do I been dying since, so I just kept my distance every time I talk, its like I ain't making any sense everyday I woke up, tyna make difference truly life's not fair it hits the most when no one cares like your own momma, my life is like movie And Im the loser,people are always winning when it would be me, i been asking everyday when I sleep i pray but I think God is too far away God do you hear, or it's true you're far a way cause its just the same thing every day ray