life's too good for me...... mad hatter's.....

life has took me down. and built me back up. I walk tall and proceed with caution.. not into b*******. and I don't like being ran around. if it's not a woman calling me I probably won't answer it. I can skip on all the b*******. I'm not rich but I got plenty. Love and desire in my heart. I force myself in the shadows. I feel the lights too good for me. my imperfections were on my mind. blinded to the joys of life. I spend most spare time I have sad and confused. how could life be so Grand and wretched at the same time. pains are engraved in my personality. very uncomfortable to me. I hide so no one is to see. was I ever good enough. will I ever know. have I been doing the right things. I know me and I say most likely. why do I feel this way. not sad not happy numb.