Sometimes I just want to quit life's too hard I dont understand how others do this shit. It's constantly causing me to p

Sometimes I just want to quit life's too hard I dont understand how others do this shit. It's constantly causing me to panic which leads to more dangerous manic trips. I know i can do it, but do i really want to put myself through it. Im not the one that caused it but thats just nonsense child like thinking will only leave my ship sinking. Now my whole life isn't the same anymore and I can't seem to find the motivation I need to believe in me and my family I just keep causing more damage down beneath our feet so I might just cut the rope and set you all free from the demon ive let take over me im no longer me so go now please I love you my boo Stephanie forever and always you'll be my queen spaz my mini man take care of mama best you can protect her I know you can do it you've always been my right hand man and to anyone else I will forever love you too.