I used to

Yeah you know I used to Count on things to happen for me Through all the things I been through The only omen to understand was you I still don’t feel like I’ve changed much I still don’t feel like I’m enough I don’t wanna die I really don’t wanna die Nah I really just wonder why When I think of death i drown inside my mind I feel so hopeless Depression got me coping I don’t regret the things I’ve done but I regret who I’ve become Nobody has helped me In the way I wanted help I guess you could ask me But in the end I trust myself couldn’t tell you What I need to feel satisfied I’ve tried all the drugs yet I cannot find the way to a better life Yeah you know I used to Count on things to happen for me Through all the things I been through The only one who ever understood me was myself I still don’t feel like I’ve got my help I don’t feel like being like myself I don’t wanna die How many days will come to pass How many loves will I outlive How many songs will I forget How many times will I submit Rough days getting rougher again Too many drugs in my system I can’t sleep I cannot eat I cannot face my anxiety Help me if you really wanna try Help me cause I feel like I’m drowning On the inside