don’t talk about it much, but it live in me

don’t talk about it much, but it live in me Pain turn into wisdom, that’s the recipe Verse 1 I been fightin’ demons, they don’t ever sleep Smilin’ for the world, but I’m dyin’ deep Mama said be strong, but she don’t see All the nights I prayed just to find some peace Cold floors, no pillow, just my pride Had to learn real quick how to swallow my pride Everybody leave when you losin’ your light But they all come back when the future look bright I gave love away, got betrayal in return Heart full of scars, yeah, I earned every burn They judge my pain like they know my past But they wasn’t there when I had nothin’ to grasp Chorus I’m still standin’ even though I been broke Still breathin’ even though my heart feel froze I been drownin’ in my thoughts, tryna stay afloat Every tear I cried turned my skin to stone They don’t feel me, they just hear my songs I been hurtin’ so long it feel normal now If I fall tonight, I get up by dawn Pain made me real, that’s what made me strong Verse 2 Trust come slow when you been crossed too much Every “I love you” start to sound like a bluff I done slept in places hope forgot Still told God, “Use me,” whether I make it or not I got habits I regret, yeah, I know it’s true Tryna numb the pain but it follow me too I done lost myself tryna save the rest Put they needs first, left my soul stressed If you really knew what I hold inside You’d understand why I move so quiet I don’t ask for help, I just grit my teeth ‘Cause every time I did, they took advantage of me Chorus I’m still standin’ even though I been broke Still breathin’ even though my heart feel froze I been drownin’ in my thoughts, tryna stay afloat Every tear I cried turned my skin to stone They don’t feel me, they just hear my songs I been hurtin’ so long it feel normal now If I fall tonight, I get up by dawn Pain made me real, that’s what made me strong Bridge I don’t want revenge, I just want relief Tryna make peace with the man in me If I don’t heal now, I might bleed forever So I’m learnin’ to love me piece by piece Outro Yeah… If you feel this, you ain’t alone We survivin’, not just livin’ Still standin’…