here I am

penny pinching love from everything and everyone given what I can fo em to stay did some shit that got in the way offended me but I found the heart in time to give that away when I needed it to get rid of this weight went through shit I thought I was alone could pick up the phone and no one was home no one home for me so I'm here riding this without a single tear done cried so much about it that when it's this deep I can only sit and stare Bear-ing my heart too deep for the thoughts to spare I had been open to the things That made me, me But life and lessons held a different key I now need for my deliverancy god giving back to the source fulfilling me here I am I bow. my tongue confess. I went from evil to bless Went from a fucking train wreck to a beautiful mess opening myself into this shit is difficult but nonetheless all them cold nights and inner fights all that was with God even times where my goodnights said could have been on a death bed I'd rather do this then figuring this shit out like a riddle and have to cry no tears in my bed pillows I rather walk with him I am so here I say and declare here I am A beautiful fucked up mess is where I stand Yet God grabbed me by the hand and all I have to say is here I am. And rest in his plan All I gotta do is meet him there So. Here I am.