sister I apologize by sharkey ocean grown OG

I still remember that night, the moonlight hittin’ the floor, You were cryin’ in the hallway while he slammed another door. We learned to tiptoe ‘round the rage, like fire under our feet, Two kids growin’ up in chaos, tryna learn how to breathe. I saw the bruises on your spirit even when you tried to smile, You were younger, you were fragile, I’d been breakin’ for a while. And when I packed that little bag, heart heavy as a stone, I looked back wishin’ I could take you, but I couldn’t bring you to the unknown. Hook: I apologize, sister, for leavin’ you behind, I was runnin’ from the monster that lived inside our life. I wanted you right next to me, safe out in the night, But the streets were cold and heartless, and you weren’t built to fight. Yeah, our bond ain’t what it used to be, I feel that all the time— But I swear I did the only thing I thought was right. Every step I took away felt like somethin’ breakin’ in my chest, I kept picturin’ you alone, prayin’ you’d make it through the stress. People say survival’s selfish, but they don’t know what it’s like, When your childhood is a battleground and fear is every night. I wasn’t tryin’ to leave you hurt, I was tryin’ to save your dreams, You deserved a softer story, not the life that broke our seams. And even though we ain’t as close, I still carry you with me— You’re the shadow in my memory and the light I wanna see. Hook: I apologize, sister, for leavin’ you behind, I was runnin’ from the monster that lived inside our life. I wanted you right next to me, safe out in the night, But the streets were cold and heartless, and you weren’t built to fight. Yeah, our bond ain’t what it used to be, I feel that all the time— But I swear I did the only thing I thought was right. If I could rewrite that night, I’d hold you tight, I’d say, “One day we’re gonna make it out, in our own damn ways.” But pain taught us different lessons, and distance built these walls, Still, I’m reachin’ through the silence hopin’ one day you’ll hear my call. So sister, if you hear this, I hope you understand, I wasn’t leavin’ you forever, I was just tryin’ to stand. And even if the past still hurts, and forgiveness takes some time, Just know I never stopped lovin’ you… even when I crossed that line.