Keep pushing on

I been fightin’ all these demons that been livin’ in my skin, Tryna climb up out the darkness that I kept myself in. Addiction had me chained, yeah it pulled me from my son, Now I’m lookin’ in the mirror askin’ what have I become? I see his little face, man, it cuts me like a blade, Knowin’ that my choices put him somewhere far away. I swear I’m tryna rise, even broken, even scared— Every step I take in healing is a step toward being there. I’m tryna get clean, tryna find my way back home, Carryin’ the pain but I’m walkin’ not alone. Got my son in my heart, got my mom holdin’ strong, And my pops up above sayin’, “Keep pushin’ on.” Mama held me down when I was fallin’ through the cracks, She prayed over my soul even when I never prayed back. Saw the tears in her eyes, saw the fear in her face, But she never gave up, kept fightin’ for my grace. And Dad, I wish you stayed, but you left too soon— Now I’m talkin’ to your memory when I’m starin’ at the moon. I’m tryna make you proud, tryna stand on my feet, Tryna break this curse that’s been runnin’ through me. Some nights I feel broken, like I’m drownin’ in regret, But I’m climbin’ out the fire and I’m not done yet. Yeah, I fell hard, but I’m done livin’ blind— I’m buildin’ back a life that addiction tried to steal from mine. I’m tryna get clean, tryna find my way back home, Carryin’ the pain but I’m walkin’ not alone. Got my son in my heart, got my mom holdin’ strong, And my pops up above sayin’, “Keep pushin’ on.”