1988

sitting on a bench again a third of charge of phone before empty again, alot of the problems are digital these days, especially in my life, the interference and the complete polor opposites and the people quick to change, go for self, but what does that entail, control ny anger instead of internal combustion and or fizxy from chading a tail that isnt going to grow but dont know what door to knock on, the compass spins wildly with magnetic difference and the interference again but ad humans we are dtill attracted to the connection of having others around, others dont have the same type of ptsd from experiences or so ive faced, speechless but just stutter trying to cone to the write words or any way to explain somethings but metaphors such as living in ib a tornado spinning, or in the eye of it grounded watching it form and thrash around you, hard to get a seconds of peace waiting for the bext time swept up agaib but knowing that theres a time theres no coming back into the centre again but thats life or such as is what others previously have said, it is what it is, what abot what it was and why no more settle for just that when it can be better if a bit of solidarity and standing together, communication only through phones these days but its like everyone need to get a certificate in operation with the problems that can arise from them, where the intent comes from is what baffles me and others since ive asked what do you know, and constantly stone walled or lead on chain yanked, still try to get by none the less, ostrasized a bit but have to come to tge surface once the bucket of crabs changes, bever before in 37 years of life have i been so, how fo you explain what you cant comprehend though. so its just a daily grind literally seem to get the bare minimum accomplished still end up with others road bloking and throwing out oil slips and spike strips, a rally a race, one that the batton gets passed on but im running it for me myself and I against three so to speak. a gold fish in a bowl type feel, fetting taunted the glass tapped on water tipped and dont see though but its what alot think i am, observe but cant find the words.