Trap

Since while high on weed I experience grandiose delusions. Grandiose religious delusions as well. Because I wanted to quit I had a question for myself. Am I wasting Gods gift? For not smoking weed. I also mentioned previously that because I’m on intense morning medications during the day I sleep. Doing so I keep hallucinating. How do I know if it’s not a dream? Because at night I don’t get these. Today while sleeping I was smoking a joint that was running. I kept taking tokes and a stranger that seemed like a friend called me out for it. “You’re wasting it.” I wonder if I really am and I should go back to smoking weed. Because mostly my hallucinations during the day are derogatory while I sleep. Could be a trap I think.