Inner Conscience

In Sikhism there are two ways to execute a “Hukam(command).” Listen to the Guru Granth Sahib or your inner conscience. I did both of them. During my second major psychotic episode my auditory hallucinations turned into Punjabi gangsters all of a sudden. Threatening to kill me and my parents. I jumped my back fence and bare foot walked to the 7-eleven gas station. I asked the cashier to call me 9-11. The police came made a u turn and left. I accepted death right then. Something the Guru Granth Sahib teaches as a big step towards the spiritual path. I saw the paramedics making a u turn. My auditory hallucinations said I’m taken to the jungle. While I was getting strapped on to the bed. I said to the paramedics and a fireman leave my parents alone and kill me as you wish. At the Grey Nuns Hospital I got on my knees and cried to spare my life for this one. Instructed by my auditory hallucinations. In four weeks admitted to the psych ward I did a job. For the Punjabi gangsters. The Sikh that spared my life I paid him back. Call him my uncle. Taking revenge on the H.A. for making Bindy Johal look foolish. A few years went by I visited Vancouver B.C. after which I was certain I’m going to reunite with Waheguru while high on weed so I did. Because while I was admitted I listened to their every “Hukam(command).” In short my second major psychotic episode was 99% real to me and that 1% I used to make the scenario 100% real was through my inner conscience. That regardless of the authenticity of my psychotic symptoms. I should listen to every “Hukam(command hallucinations).” That is how I made my spiritual journey to reuniting with Waheguru the God of Sikhs genuine.