Bens story

What’s up man haven’t seen you in ages Sorry I been distant my depression has reached new stages what’s up talk to me dude let me know what you been going through It don’t matter Of course it does dude go on tell me I want understand Well I been going through shit like everyone does pushed people away because I know there judge it’s all hard man I don’t know where to start I couldn’t pay the debt now family has no house or car balifs are on the way to take my little girls phone my girl left me now I’m all on my own family won’t help because I pushed them away I got in to bad habits now this life I want leave today dude please don’t admit defeat you can stay with me till you get back on your feet come on get off the bridge it’s a harsh drop I can’t have another friend please don’t do this stop I can’t go on I appreciate it but I have had enough of life I fuckin hate it I don’t want to reach out because I’m not worthy of anyone’s help I’ve made bad life choices and that’s all on myself Please come on get down from there we can go back to mine and we can take things from there this won’t be all bad and I know you can’t see your kids might hate you now but this state your in they would never wish to see I don’t care this dark cloud in my head is getting even darker I’ve ruined there life’s and now things are just getting harder why don’t you just go I don’t want you to see me do this Come on man I’m here for you and I want to see you through it think about the kids faces when they turn on the news and find out that the man that did this was you It doesn’t matter there better off with out me they don’t trust me no more all they do is doubt me and I don’t deserve a family all I’ll do is mess it up again Please please don’t do this Ben think of Jacob and sapphires face when they find out they wouldn’t want you to check out early on life now way no how we can make this situation better we can plan it some how Oh My god Ben fucking hell 999 what service you require police ambulance and fire there’s been a suicide on the A31 fucking hell help me please someone there Ben oh Ben why did you do this I told you we could of gotten through it but now it’s to late This is the reality of suicide check on your mates