renovation love

staring at myself in the mirror I wanna see clearer and look past the pain you played on me its hard to breathe and have sanity knowing that you played on me how can I really believe anything I wanna have faith in what what we are but right now my hearts torn apart left me at home thinking you was saying until I saw it for myself im full of pain and doubt I wanna know we are stronger when you gotta go out and you wont slip on me when we going through something or you try to prove something only one thats hurting is me and I cant get angry im to tired and stressed out just show me with loyalty and affection l.o.v.e just for me let them know they aren't something and you made a mistake and regret them ever being around and hold me down spiritually mentally emotionally I dont like the flex its a mess just be perfect like the love I fell for when you always made sure I knew I was the only one let's restart and make it better this time no rewinds. thats coming from my heart ❤️ I wanna have trust again in your loyalty 💯