Toughest Lion

Schizophrenia has different criteria’s. Most common are positive symptoms. Hallucinations and delusions. Then within these two there are different types of hallucinations and delusions. For example auditory and visual hallucinations. Meaning hearing things or seeing things that are not present. Delusions has its own sections. Such as persecutory and religious. What I experience on daily basis. As a schizoaffective disorder patient. Is that I’m being harmed by my auditory hallucinations. Because out here people are trying to harm me as well. So both my auditory hallucinations and my persecutory delusions make sense. My auditory hallucinations talks about religion as well. Mostly Hinduism. In years of time I have build myself a solid religious delusions. Which is hard to make me believe it’s all a bluff. According to my doctors(psychiatrists). I should realize that what I’m experiencing is not real. Even if that is the case the experience of schizophrenia does affect me a lot. Because I hear multiple voices talking to me like real humans. Since I self educated myself with Hinduism my religious delusions are a fixed belief system. For example Hinduism is so vast. All the Hindu religious scriptures combined together makes up to a billion verses. Since I used to preach Hinduism people I got drunk with liked to talk about religion a lot. What I found out was that everybody is so lost. I could have been like the others and showed more interest towards the fun part of the religion Hinduism. “Kamasutra” for example. Though I chose to read the entire Hindu religious scripture the Ramcharitmanas. To the idols of Lord Shiva and Lord Hanuman. That is what you call a devotion. This was just the start of my devotion. I may sound soft though I’m the toughest lion.