🆓 falling .... monologue 2

s 30 minutes but what can I do about that am I supposed to lower my shine to make them feel comfortable they don't like the truth and I'm sorry it's not my problem you know changes have to be in motion I wish as people we could just work together have conscious unity so we can get more done but unfortunately I haven't found my tribe does that make sense everybody around me was Judas so imagine sell you out for a dollar if money was so relevant why are they giving it for free you need your resource and that's what I believe in craftsmanship I have a couple ideas once I can get my health in order I want to focus primarily on my business I know just right now is not a good time but that's what's really been on my mind I really don't want to work for nobody no more I haven't worked in a long time because they were underpaying me and slave waging me.. I always had to fight I came out the p**** having to just fight and I'm tired of fighting I want to be able to kick back trust the people I'm around have a conversation smoke a blunt that's it it's not difficult unfortunately everybody has a motive or intent so this is why it's very important that I put everything on the table so we have an understanding and of course to protect myself so I don't want to go back society or system because I know it's b******* I stay true to who I am I don't change for nothing or nobody and a lot of people want to come in and micromanage act like they created me and what it is I'm building everybody want credit over the legacy everybody trying to snatch legacy but I have the blueprint so at the end of the day when I see my ideas being intertwined by other people I'm not jealous I don't mind showing love and sharing in order for everybody to prosper and see the world that we need to create you know I'm not jealous but I do get tired of people stealing my intellectual property my ideas my artistry then sit here and mock me and disrespect me and act like I'm trash and everything I do is trash but yet they want to be me so f****** bad so it's just very confusing I don't want to compete with nobody I'm In My own Lane you know and all these people have these expectations for my life it's just crazy so yeah I'm a little defensive right now on edge just went through a lot of trauma just trying to heal my nervous system because I'm always hypervigilant and I'm always being attacked that's just normal this is why I pull back from teaching cuz it was getting too much the gang stalking and the disrespect any obsessions if that's what's crazy is the obsession I just want a normal life unfortunately it isn't like my life is an MK ultra program that mimics a movie so I would like to write a script which is something also I'm looking for someone to work with you know I'm different projects that I have team effort but I'm not going to see here and keep f****** get played dog so understand my frustration and why I'm so overly about this s*** because I don't play about life and now I got a bunch of weird magician gang stalkers who I want to see her and throw magic in my environment to create natural disasters in chaos agents and minions f****** flying monkeys of The wizard of Oz and... As behalf of munchkin land and the f****** Smurfs I just want to live my life yo.. I'm tired of fighting for what naturally should be already mine like there's so much unfairness and Injustice is not right and I'm going to hold a lot of people accountable for it which of course brings more hatred I understand we chosen ones don't really have a life or friends or relationships it's very hard because of the type of spiritual warfare I'm having to deal with I'm looking for people who are strong in spirit and who they are they're not easily boughtable or compromisable loyalty is number one for me that's royalty