Y.F.G- Asking for God to light my way and let me live

I use to have plenty of ememies that waNted me dead but I aLways kept an eye out cuz I was aware they never caught me slipping I kept walking with a pep in my step prayed God put me to rest cuz I'm tired of these streets and all the stress I know it's a problem the drugs I done been on it since I was young and im still fighting the drugs and still had not had enough I'm dying from hep c it sucks but I got what I got now I got to stand with God and look him in the eyes and said let me out this disease is killing me I'm going insane God said it's to late but I forgive you I also forgave myself now I got to deal with the cards I dealt myself and now I quit work cuz my liver swelling when I started moving and not drinking water enough I feel like dying I regret poking myself over and over again sharing and all that crazy shit it's the dumbest thing i ever did and now I'm dying I lived 5 almost ten years with the shit and the doctors calling me telling me it's urgent for you to come in and get seen regardless on if you do drugs or not anymore cuz it's killing you if it wasn't killing me I would have had to wait longer now I'm closer to death and now it's to the point where Medicare will pay for it to get rid of it and the demons it has the disease is a real demon that fucks with my brain my soul my thoughts and actions I feel weak I can't even explain it it's so weird but I know I don't feel ok I been trying to get it taken care of so I can be normal again but I'm still mad at myself for what I did I can barley ever forgive myself for that sin freewill is a bitch. but I shrug my shoulders and sigh and keep on walking with a pep In my step the way I was walking before I caught this shit keep me in your prayers cuz I feel like any second now it's going to turn for the worse the curse is stitched in my blood threw my skin and I'm not kin to the sin of the temple paying not attention to how dangerous it is and now I'm worried so much I need to go get everything tested just to make sure it ain't another thing hiding I need to stop it now or die young ill be fine God said just keep your faith in the lord he can save you from anything in life diseases be prayed from your body the light surging threw my body the medication chemo for 6 months I'm driving myself nuts knowing that I'm about to deal with the hardest thing in my entire life since the days I was poking myself over and over again it's got to end I quit the needle 6 years ago now it's time to get rid of the demon I unleashed in my blood and pray everyday and eat right i will make it to see another say have kids and a fam