jlove -dear God

Dear God... It’s me again. Not the one they preach about in songs with a grin. But the girl with a past like a graveyard of sin, Ask You one thing — will You let a lost one in? [Verse 1 – Regret & honesty] I regret what I did, every needle, every line, Every time I fell back, said, “This the last time.” I regret the cold nights when I begged for a hit, And the mirror showed a monster I ain’t wanna admit. I regret every tear that I caused my own blood, Every lie that I told just to feel that fake love. Regret runs deep, like it’s stitched in my veins, Like the devil took a seat and carved out my name. I tried to forget it, tried buryin’ the past, But it creeps like a ghost with a grip that lasts. I smile in the day, but at night I still choke, On the guilt in my throat from the hearts that I broke. [Hook – Melodic chorus] Dear Heaven, can You hear this pain in me cry? Can a soul so lost still reach for the sky? I’m broken, I’m bruised, but I’m beggin’ for light, If You got grace left... meet me tonight. Forgive me, Lord, for the nights I bled, For the lies I lived and the words I said. I ain’t askin’ for wings or a crown of gold, Just a chance to let go of this pain I hold. [Verse 2 – The addiction & loneliness] They don’t know what it’s like to be trapped in your head, To wake up every day just wishin’ you were dead. To stare at the ceiling with tears that won’t dry, To say, “I’ll quit tomorrow,” and still get high. See, people who ain’t struggled, they just judge and stare, But they ain't walked a mile in my shoes of despair. They ain’t screamed at the mirror, “I hate who you are!” While prayin' to a God from the seat of a car. They don’t know how it feels when you want to be clean, But the world moves on like you ain't ever been seen. When your body’s a cage and your soul’s on fire, And the only thing louder is the pull of desire. [Bridge – Spoken softly, emotional beat] I ain’t glorifyin' pain... But this pain is mine. And I'm just tryna find a place Where mercy touches time. [Verse 3 – Asking God for redemption] Dear God, I don't deserve Your ear, But if You still save wrecks, then I need You here. I burned bridges with flames I lit with my shame, But I’m standin' in ashes just callin’ Your name. I’ve sinned, I’ve stumbled, I’ve cursed Your light, But I’m still reachin’ up in the dead of night. I know I’m no angel, but I’m tired of the hell, Tired of wakin’ up in this ghost of a shell. I know there’s a Heaven, and I know You see, So why does this guilt still feast on me? I ain’t askin’ to erase what I can’t undo, Just to feel like maybe... I still matter to You. [Final Chorus – Louder, more desperate and full of hope] Dear Heaven, can You feel this beat in my chest? I’m tryna make peace with the weight of my mess. I’m climbin’ from chains, I’m reachin’ for grace, Just hopin’ You ain’t turned away Your face. Forgive me, Lord, I ain’t who I was, But I’m here with a heart that still believes in love. If there's room in Your house for a soul like mine, Then let this be the letter that crosses that line. [Outro – Whispered, fading into silence] Amen to the ones who fight and fall... And still get up, even if they crawl. This letter to Heaven — sealed with a cry, From a girl who lived... But shoulda died. Like this but deeper and make it rhyme and flow more