Before I go

[chorus] before i go , i wanted to tell you that im sorry for what i did im sorry if I was a jad brother, or son, for cousin, or your best friend im trying my best, have a whole lot of regrets just ask God for your next step life will get better when the sun comes out the flowers need rain or its dead [verse 1] Dear God im begging you notice the past few years I've been fighting emotions I've been praying, and seeking, and reading devotions i cant find any hope or find a purpose they said that lyrics are made with a passion now i see obstacles that i am passing everyone looks at me and starts laughing made fun of me because i started rapping i express myself in music i dont talk about my problems people are so messy, they causing all that drama im struggling in life because im stuck on so much trauma im waiting for god to give them haters all the karma i don't tell people my problems, im scared to show my pain sometimes I cut myself, now my shirt has a bloodstain i struggling with my mental health, its like its pouring rain i just wanna end my life and put everything in the drain [chorus] before i go , i wanted to tell you that im sorry for what i did im sorry if I was a bad brother, or son, for cousin, or your best friend im trying my best, have a whole lot of regrets just ask God for your next step life will get better when the sun comes out the flowers need rain or its dead [verse 2] hey dad, i wanna say how are you its been a long time since i last saw you i just wanna ask, what did i ever do for you to treat us the way you did, im comfused i needed a father but you wouldnt bother you wouldnt spend a dollar on your daughers i got offors while your stuck fixing washers you wouldnt even care if your son got lost huh? [chorus] before i go , i wanted to tell you that im sorry for what i did im sorry if I was a jad brother, or son, for cousin, or your best friend im trying my best, have a whole lot of regrets just ask God for your next step life will get better when the sun comes out the flowers need rain or its dead [verse 3] hey mom, i wanna say im sorry I've been a big burden and you almost lost me its been alot with all of the changes i am still learning all of the pages all the memories are like a brick on my chest the night that dad had went under arresti i cant change the fact that he failed gods test i just wanted a father like the rest but its something we cannot control its not my fault he doesnt want to play his role im just praying i dont lose my soul i need to make sure that i go do gods goal i wanna be the father that i never had i wanna go and have kids and be the best dad i wanna have a wife and give her love she never had ill make sure our family follows gods plans [chorus] before i go , i wanted to tell you that im sorry for what i did im sorry if I was a jad brother, or son, for cousin, or your best friend im trying my best, have a whole lot of regrets just ask God for your next step life will get better when the sun comes out the flowers need rain or its dead