Life hit me hard

(Verse 1) I try, so hard, to change my ways, But every time I turn, I'm lost in the maze. Thought I learned my lesson, but I'm stuck in replay, Same old patterns, can't break free today. Late nights, same fights, I’m chasing the light, But shadows of my past keep pulling me tight. You say you want change, but I’m caught in the loop, Every promise I make feels like a slip in the groove. (Verse 2) I’m searching for the truth, but it’s buried in doubt, Every step forward, I’m met with a shout. Trying to rewrite, but the script’s still the same, Caught in the cycle, losing track of the game. I’m grinding for growth, but I stumble and fall, Each time I rise, I just hit the same wall. I’m reaching for hope, but it’s fading away, I try, so hard, but I’m lost in the fray. Wanna cry, but then ill b soft Thinkin bout all da family i don lost Kant believe all em funeral cost I don gave up No more fight left in md Forgave all my enemies Lord kno im not tryna see the penitentiary so i roll up, smoke all my weed Not tryna see hell Hope heaven waitin fah me They say pain change you but I say loyalty does, Nobody to trust, I carved my own heart out, because, These feelings hurt more than lust, it’s tough, Tired of the fukkin sorries, man, I’ve had enough. Life hit me hard, like I was struck by a bus, Now I’m moving solo, in the shadows, I adjust, Every scar a lesson, but the past is a curse, Got my guard up high, yeah, I’m ready for the worst. Memories linger, but I keep ‘em in the back, Survivor's mindset, ain't no way I’m looking slack, Loyalty’s a treasure, found it rare in the dust, Built my own empire, from the ashes, I trust. Heart colder than winter, but the fire's still there, Every tear I shed, turns to strength in the air, No more fake friends, just a crew that’s tight-knit, I’ll rise from the pain, yeah, you know I won’t quit.