I dedicate this song to my sons.

I dedicate this song to my sons. I'm still fighting to get back to you two. I've always loved you and always will. I got you on my heart and mind I'm going to get it right this time. I know I fell so far behind. I hope you know my love is blind. I love you, and I'm so sorry, I've been so far away. tripped on addiction and been fighting to survive every day. I wasn't me I had to leave I had to stay far away. I still see you in my mind like it was just yesterday. been so lost but just know still going to find my way. I ask God to lead me back, so many nights I prey. been so lost but just know still going to find my way. i got you on my heart and mind. I'm going to get it right this time. I know I fell so far behind I hope you know my love is blind God is good and he's leading me home son. his love is unfailing and it can't be out run. and oh how I tried, to self destruct into my on demise. but the lord tied all these knots that I couldn't untie just like me you've had a father by your side the whole time, rewind. I was seven when I was told I had a father in heaven if I could believe and I did almost instantly. I was ecstatic I ran outside to play. there was a light breeze with sunshine that day I felt this warmth envelope me and I heard this voice say... I've got something special for you. that's the first time God took my pain away. when your getting pushed against you gotta keep pushing back,fact,...God goes before you,back,..he's got that too. don't ever give up son, he'll never give up on you. one day soon by his grace we will be face to face, we can't lose, choose love, choose God, cuz he chose you. he's got something special for both of you too it's been a long journey I've been colored red ,I've been swimming in a sea of the dead. I went to the bottom but found the top instead. so many flipping miracles just like heavenly bread many nights I cried, I died, I blead, but anything is possible in Jesus christ just like he said. life is funny son, it's full of twists and turns. I was forged in the fire and untill new things I learned in the smoke while the old things burned. My sons your the greates blessings from God ive ever recieved. Love can conquer any mountain if you simply believe. i opened my heart and it is he, it is he that opened my eyes to see. he fills what is empty with beautiful dreams. oh how i dreamed to embraceyou my sons. i went to hell and back but through christ life was won. he is the one he is the one, one one one one one one one the battle is won