Trust issues

Yeah, I got these demons in my head, They tell me don’t trust a soul, don’t trust no one, But damn, I just wanna be wrong, I wanna let someone in, but my mind’s too far gone. Yo, I been broken so many times, I can’t count it, Used to trust like a kid, but now I’m doubting, Every handshake, every promise, it’s all clouded, Caught up in the lies, now I’m feelin' crowded. I let my walls down once, they kicked 'em to the ground, Got stabbed in the back, and I ain’t ever found, A way to trust again, like I’m wearin’ this frown, I look around at the people, they all actin’ like clowns. Grew up with a smile, now it’s replaced by a glare, Friends turnin’ snakes, I ain’t trustin' them near, I keep my circle tight, but it’s still full of fear, ’Cause trust is like glass—fragile, disappears in the air. I got trust issues, and I can’t seem to let ‘em go, Feelin' like I’m trapped, everywhere I go, People say they care, but they don't really know, That I’m torn apart by the lies I’ve been shown. I got trust issues, I’m holdin’ on too tight, Scared to let you in, scared you’ll take flight, Yeah, I keep my distance, I stay out of sight, 'Cause every time I trust, I’m runnin’ from the fight. Used to let my guard down, now I’m second-guessin’, Every word that’s spoken, every message I’m messin’, Is it real? Or just a game they’re flexin'? I’ve been hurt so bad, man, it’s like a lesson. I used to dream of trust like it was a foundation, Now I see it like a bomb, like a damn detonation, Blow up in my face, no hesitation, Now I’m fightin’ my own mind—no consolation. They say “You can’t live like this, it’s all in your head,” But it’s hard to sleep at night with these thoughts in my bed, Every “I love you” feels like it’s just been said, And every time they walk away, my heart’s been bled. I got trust issues, and I can’t seem to let ‘em go, Feelin' like I’m trapped, everywhere I go, People say they care, but they don't really know, That I’m torn apart by the lies I’ve been shown. I got trust issues, I’m holdin’ on too tight, Scared to let you in, scared you’ll take flight, Yeah, I keep my distance, I stay out of sight, 'Cause every time I trust, I’m runnin’ from the fight. It’s like a game of chess with every word I say, I move with caution, every step a delay, Don’t wanna be fooled, don’t wanna feel that way, But damn, I’m tired of livin’ like I’m stuck in a cage. It’s a cycle I can’t break