characteristics

i always wanted to impress somone but why couldnt i impress myself right now im feeling depressed and im not at my best and my familys scared of my health these days i dont even pick up the phone even if somebodys asking for help i had a scene and my scene has turned to a script they all said they loved me but they never did all lied ro my face and i hate this shit i cant take it nomore i need somthing to hit imma pursue this rap shit cause in life i need to see change im throuing heart and its to far from my range they said they all loved me but ther acting strange my heart cant be broken cause its not even there i gave it away cause i wanted to share i gave it waya cause i wanted ro care life is so shit life is not fair please dont feel sorry for me u only loved me cause of rip they wont truly love u till ur coffin the truth hurt so much i cant even eat the truth hurts so much i cant take the heat long time no see im making these songs but r they really about me if i said i need help would they really agree it feels like me vs the earth and i knew they all hate me from the day of my birth got me sitting here wondering questioning my health and i treid to hide my pain but i aint that stealth im trying not to cry cause its hard and its like im tryna think like the world but we dont think alike tears are riding down my face like vandik this aint a song ots my life done nothing wrong paid the price tryna dig deep but i cant see the light got sitting here thinking if im right