t∆lking 2 mys3lf

here i am talking to my self once again all by myself in a place where people dwell and yet I still feel lonely as hell surrounded round all this anger and Bliss greed envy and jealousy shit mental health and spiritual scars will put a toll on you then drag you down real hard what have I become can't seem to recognize myself anymore Frozen to the core I can't feel my heart no more what used to be who I used to be was somebody I used to could be at peace with everything falling apart ain't no use in trying to keep it all together because in time it just never gets better always seem to be treacherous weather to be or not to be I can't really tell if what I'm seeing is me what the hell? who's that person there? in the reflection I'm staring at? must be a glitch in The matrix I know it sounds so crazy but maybe baby we ain't even meant to be who's to say what makes you you and me could it be its all scrutiny fighting for immunity because soon it be something other than human beings up under the moon you see the Doom will be on a way soon for you and me don't be scared be prepared always try to take some care beware creatures are lurking everywhere preachers of in the pool pit don't know what to declare spiritual warfare and nuclear Holocaust whats the cost of everybody up and gone all is lost permified by the frost look for a Little bit of the sun for everything to thaw no matter how far no matter how close to where you are every time you think of me look to them Stars but just don't look too hard cuz you might miss me Right where You are easy breezy completely discreetly releasing what needs to be evenly I don't pretend to be something perfect or need to be geez Louise you wanna a pizza of me all you can eat call it Stevie B's ADHD ADD ADT AT&t and DVDs and d a r e let It be no time to stop starting starting to stop stopping to start it up starting to stopping all of it all up hello where's my mental health not meant to be to be anything else other than myself never been too big on doing other's wrong I sit down and I write these songs. they help me think and talk about my life in this world and where I think I may belong wow how do I get the feeling where I'm not feeling left out or feeling down or trapped in something I can never get out what's my name do you remember or was it something you already forgot since yesterday ainy gotta lie to kick it might as well rest anyway even though every bit this full of shit I still try my best in each and every way they are close my eyes one more time and pass away but I don't know will I float up through my ceiling just like ghost oh will i a crumble beneath all this realness that will expose all my sureness I'm not sure if I'm really ready to go much less to anyone else I love just to disappear with no return see i much rather it be me always feeling just like a burden always hurting behind the curtain never were super sure my lifes has been a blur but I always stay pure trials and tribulations always to endure very often more than often they're way too hard when they occur oh what a world oh what a world that you and I were placed in it sucks we gotta face it just wish we had a choice to choose but no it's crazy how we're given a free will but the power in you instills the power of freedom and free will just wish I could have said yes or no before I became an embryo so do you hear me bro maybe I just wouldn't want this to be the way or the way for it to go oh well I'm just a old man within an Old Shell like a ghost on the shelf can you hear me Casper are you there? reaching deeply for something I need to keep me at peace with war at myself