folling for her

yuh you wanna know how I feel? fine. I'll tell u. I feel unwanted, I feel useless I don't know how to do this anymore I don't know how to get better my head is a dark place nd it only gets worse, day by day nd I have no idea how to stop the darkness from coming in. I have no idea how to save myself anymore I'm done making a fool of myself every day I'm sorry it took me forever to finally accept the truth At this point, I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm not sure if I'm depressed or not becz I am smiling and laughing but at night, I find myself crying feeling numb and empty fuck u gal u been pretending as if I'm a bad person so that u must not feel guilty about things u did to me. I'm fighting demons, trying to see what's up there beyond the clouds I see the pain hidden in ur pride I see ur not satisfied with tell me what else can I do to make u believe that I love u tell me I'll never love again the way I loved u