me

I found myself spiritual loss searching for hope... they telling me to get lost crushing my hopes... I'm still praying for hope... hoping me finds me... or guidance to help me find me... cause me lost looking for reasons and why... where do we go when we die... why would I follow bullshit if it's a lie... why they say a man is not supposed to cry... when I'm crying inside everyday... my eyesz dry cuz my well done ran dry... had me drinking heavily to get by... misery was bugging me like a fly... if you my friend never say bye... knowing bye means forever... my journey I walk it alone I need to know you spiritually by my side forever... I hear a voice calling out to me... I look around nobody I see... damn this some good as weed got me bugging... than I hear it again I'm I triping... there's nobody here or is there... come out come out come out who ever you are... he spoke again so close but sounding so far... that spark of hope spoke... life can be so far-fetched... chasing false attachment... living in someones else illusion... might look it on the outside picture perfect... but on the inside far from from pictured perfect... don't get comfortable that's that settlement... off and on connection... burning the wrong energy... from absorbing the wrong energy... waiting on your conductor to drain build up energy... our spiritual being attaches... life gave us a share of rough patches... coming in batches and we walked it alone... in different states for 3 years silent phones... crossing each other's minds in a different zone... wishing I had the ability to use telepathy... so I could tell you everything will be okay... broken umbrella here comes them rainy days... makes you question our maker... your husband your daughter he molested... your oldest sond best friend got murdered... then your lost ability to walk... bout to give up then something spark... created asmall light in dark... and your inner you started to talk... hey you remember me I'm you... we haven't talked in awhile I'm missing you... don't block me out I'm here to help you... in the mirror it's me you see... I'm everywhere you be... just take the time out and notice me...