all dreams real

all dreams real even the nightmares even the the dark scars you ever looked death straight in the eye not know you'll live the next day cuz you might FUCKING die you don't know what I've been through you don't know my struggles you don't know me like that we ain't homies like that lost a year of my life that i can't get back it really showed me who got my fucking back all dreams real even the nightmares even the the dark scars every day I'd frear for my life i was alive but i wasn't living i felt i was dead inside quiet literally man, its been a long ass ride if everyone dies in their nightmares... than why the fuck am i not dead yet whats really garenteed is nothing's garenteed (nothing) i don't remember much but i remember enough docs trying to pin me down i don't think they gave a fuck about me thanks a lot Kaiser almost killed me and radies fucking saved me i don't remember much but i remember enough you ever been trapped in the hospital for months on end not knowing that day would be the fucking end couldn't look forward couldn't see nothing couldn't understand me fucking mumbling but when i look back... its fucking humbling what is money really worth if you can't buy happiness i just look up to god and ask him why why i... couldn't walk couldn't really talk every day i wish i had a glock, AR or an AK to see a better place to be-in-a-better space, ok to disappear and fucking erase i was locked in a place, i never want to see again (never again) all dreams real even the nightmares even the dark scars i was lost in a world lost in my own mind even myself, i couldn't find i got scars you can't see demons you can't see call it PTSD cuz these demons scaring me I'd see the clock on the wall it just went tick tick tick tick tick the shadows standing real tall chance of living, real small but that was back then this is now thankful im here but i wonder how how the fuck am i still living how the fuck it got so bad how the fuck i drop 80 pounds in just a couple months anorexic like that what it be like popping pills every day now do it like juice wrld without the od now they don't even get me high no more just trying not to relapse all dreams real even the nightmares even the the dark scars i got flashbacks that scare the fuck outta me dark days, dark nights you don't know what I've been through you don't know my struggles you don't know me like that we ain't homies like that lost a year of my life that i can't get back it really showed me who got my fucking back all dreams real even the nightmares even the the dark scars sheld the pain i don't even feel the pain no more all i feel is the numbness i got hospital trama i can't outrun trying to outrun my past you don't know what I've been through you don't know my struggles lost a year of my life that i can't get back it really showed me who got my fucking back all dreams real even the nightmares even the the dark scars all dreams real even the nightmares even the the dark scars