Stand Still- Honibea The Humanist

Stand Still- Honibea The Humanist Hook- Stand Still Don't move ahead Stand Still One wrong move and you'll End up dead V.1- Interrogate, Investigate Why can't I just relate But I retaliate, then hesitate Was never taught in my house to communicate Disassociate, then I meditate Just prepare for another surprise debate, then I ruminate, then elevate, before I sink again and it'll be too late Never did no wrong, hurt so long I'm trying to understand and be strong But this is my battle of the mind I hate myself, I'm not kind To the one that matters, the one who's crying, the one who chatters The one who's dying Tell her shut up and accept my hate Tell her grow up cuz this is her fate Then she show's up, slaps me across my face Push back, tell her that I need some space She says why? No matter what's going on, I'll be there, I will But I can't still seem to trust her So I freeze up and choose to Hook V.2- Procrastinate, scared to fail Shaking badly, head to tail Talk to me like you know me well That you had my life, lived my hell Woke up every day to bullshit something Had to be in the fray, even if I did nothing Look to the demons that live in my head Telling me stories as I go to bed Wake up again, eyes so red I hear the voices, I'm filled with dread Sit and get told that I'm just a bitch That was the fuse that got lit Gave what everyone wanted, I just stopped caring I said fuck it Stopped being daring That's the dust settling on the battlefield That was the time I chose to yield I knew they didn't give a fuck how I feel, even the fake love given, It stopped being real Broke my soul and got their fill Lost my strength and even fell ill Words driven in my heart, like a drill Caved in from the stress, so I had to Hook